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The thing that struck me most, first, were your words, dropping off mid-sentence as I sat and reached beneath my dress to pull off my stockings.

You looked at me as we were chatting our hellos, and I pushed the dress high, so that you could glance from my face, lower, see the red and white panties, hot to the touch now as I waited for you here, waited to take the nylons off until you could watch me, I did. I did.

The thing I noticed next, second, was your face, red, as you shouted into the clear day, the lovely gushing as I straddled you, my red panties in your pocket now, with my keys. Your face, relieved, surprised, yes, already, yes, it was glorious, glorious as the day, and the light, and the grass, the soft wind and buzz of faraway traffic on the highway.

Third, the rush, the glow, spring, your head in my lap. My cunt still throbbing, even now as I write, remembering it, savoring it, all is well, remedy sublime.

mermaid voyage

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And while you are there, check out some of the marvelous offerings from this hot new publisher. Hot hot hot! (did I say hot?) and smart, to boot. I am reading through their Femme Fatale collection right now, and will have more to share as soon as I stop fanning myself.

Check back, as the review section of this blog will feature some of Go Deeper’s selections. So it is bound to begin with a bang.

So to speak.

In the meanwhile, enjoy your Mermaid Voyage. I know you will!

invitation

Your invitation has made me a bit nervous, that’s all, I say, as I sit in the booth at a quarter past five, glancing at my watch–you said 5:30, and I have come early, not because I meant to, but because I did not get lost. And now I am sitting here, alone, aware enough of your intentions, and mine.

I have seen the gleam in your eyes, mornings, your grey wool, my hair up and neat, and we rode the elevator to the sixth floor, where I get off, you farther up, I knew, I knew as you glanced over at me, day after day, the wordless wolf-like grin, teeth showing. Big bad, little red. I need you.

Strolling in, you seem so cool, the room is yours, the universe. Squeezing fast in next to me in the tall seats, not cool, no, you are not, your heat searing my cunt with a brush of your hand, my hand shaking as the waitress hands me my scotch, you your gin. It burns, your hand tight on my thigh, grasping, then soft, higher, sigh, your fingers push my short skirt still higher as you speak indecipherable words that I realize later were kind, ordinary, the string of my thong now wet and teasing,  tightwire. I might fall.

Ice in a glass, you ask, receive, reach for a cube, reach down, it melts as you trace patterns on my hot bare skin. “Here,” you hand a cube to me. “Put it in your cunt.”

I look, confused, at first, then determined, my fingers beneath my skirt, pushing aside the string of the thong, my fingers straight into the heat, my wet, the cube, melting quickly, my need multiplies. You continue to talk to me, tell me tales of the everyday, hold my hand, my wild eyes, wild desire, tomorrow, yes, I will, here, same time.

pop music

It was too loud and too dark and I had a glass or two too many to care if my skirt was too short or was riding up my ass as you said was so fucking hot last night.

The rhythm had me, you knew it, when you grabbed my hand and turned with me on the floor. Bones meet flesh, and your skin was solid, sculpted, sure, squeezing against me in the dark crowd, bass line driving, driving me home in my buzz, in your deliberate responses to my blatant desire, your questioning eye. “Yes?” I nodded back, and you pushed me roughly through the thick crowd, through the doors and into the night, music still pounding against the bricks in the alley beside, where you ripped down the buttons of my sweater, my bra, my nipple aching as you suck hard and I gasp yes, yes, I touch your pants, I feel your cock fill my hand. Your breath smokes in the cold air you sigh I pull your belt release unzip drop to my knees to take you taste you want you, your hand pushing my head, pulling my hair, my hands yanking my sodden panties down, off. Fuck my mouth, hard, fuck me, lift me, my skirt worked up my hips, heels digging into your back, bricks scratching my back. I kiss your mouth hard, hungry, the whiskey warm on my throat, lingering taste of your cock, your cock now gliding into my slick heat.

barefoot 3

Eileen smiled back at Tom, and paused, then slowed her walk. She glanced back to check her reflection in a car window, then startled as the glass suddenly rolled down.

“Nice hair,” a familiar voice laughed. “Kind of unkempt, you know,” he continued, “like you didn’t have to try too hard.” Eileen jumped, and felt her face warm as she looked back at the beat-up metal, all wrapped around a hemi engine. No. She looked away, froze, then looked back.

“Please leave!” Eileen whispered, nearly shaking in anger. Six months. He had been gone for six months, gone in a cloud of dust, tires spinning, leaving her on the side of that old dirt road. And now he had come to the big city, today, of all days, as though he knew, as though he could monitor her attraction to other men.

“All right, honey,” blackstrap voice deep and low. “I just drove up here to say I miss you. You’re lookin’ awful pretty, Eileen, you sure are.” Smoother when warm, yes he was. He started the car, pipes purring as he slowly pulled away.

Tom walked toward Eileen, “Are you all right?” he asked, now close. Eileen felt dizzy, and shut her eyes. Already, she had been in a rush, and now Luke Dupre had returned, once more, as inconvenient as the first time Eileen had seen him, as inconvenient as he always was. Tom put a hand on her shoulder. “Do you know him? Did he threaten you?”

“He surprised me,” Eileen answered, as she opened her eyes, surprised now more by Tom’s presence, his concern, his hand briefly on her arm, his shirt neatly tucked into the trim jeans, muscular legs beneath the denim. Eileen looked up. “I just didn’t expect anyone to be sitting in that car.”

“I’m surprised the piece of crap runs!” Tom scoffed. “Are you ready?” he asked, as he offered his arm. “Shall we?…”

“Sure…” Eileen hooked her arm in his. “Yes,” she straightened as she felt Tom’s strength, warm and certain. “Yes, we shall.”  And they walked down the street.

For a few moments, the two walked in silence. Eileen felt faint as soon as her thoughts started to wander, so difficult it seemed to make ordinary conversation. Just now, starting out fresh, Tom seemed thoughtful, and conscientious. And hot. No denying it, Tom was attractive.

A yellow-shafted flicker flew low, and landed on the trunk of an old poplar tree.

“Look!” Eileen shouted. “Did you see it?”

“See what?” Tom answered.

“There, the flicker!” Eileen pointed to the tree.

“What is a flicker?” Tom asked her, looking as the bird went to work drumming. “The woodpecker?”

“Yes,” Eileen walked a little closer, closer, as the bird pecked around to the other side of the tree. She watched for a minute, and moved closer. The bird flew away.

“Oh, I scared it,” Eileen sighed.

“So you are quite the birder,” Tom remarked.

“Flickers are not so unusual,” Eileen said. “I just like them.”

A blue heron lumbered above the rooftops, flying no doubt between the two nearby ponds.

“I like them, too,” Eileen pointed at the heron.

“Now, what is that one called?” Tom asked.

“Really?” Eileen thought. “It’s a heron,” she answered. “I think they are lucky, but really, it is storks that are lucky. It’s just that we don’t have storks, so herons must be the closest thing.”

“Storks are lucky?” Tom asked. “Well, I guess babies are lucky.”

“Babies don’t come from storks, you know,” teased Eileen.

“Well, I can see I have a whole lot of learning to do,” Tom teased back. “Say, I can show you something you’ll like a lot,” Tom said.

“Show me what?” Eileen paused, flustered as her filthy eyes drifted unavoidably, quickly, to Tom’s jeans. What? Show her what? “You have a baby?” she joked.

“No, no babies here,” Tom said. “It’s a surprise.”

“A surprise…” Eileen repeated, her heart beating a little quicker as she began to recall her early afternoon reveries. “Hmm. You aren’t going to give me a hint?”

Tom kept walking, a grin now spreading.

“So, where are we going for coffee?” Eileen asked, changing the subject.

“There is a place just down the street,” Tom suggested.

“Where Have You Bean.” Eileen confirmed. She knew the place, the only place nearby except Dunkin’ Donuts, which thankfully was not the place he had in mind.

“I’ve been here all along,” Tom answered, and he stopped, turned, put his hand on Eileen’s shoulder. “Are you sure you are all right?” Tom asked, crinkling his forehead as he looked at her. Eileen looked at him, confused, saw his face clear, then turn red.

“Oh, you mean the coffee place…” Tom corrected himself. ”By the way,” Tom continued, “I don’t even know your name.”

“Eileen,” she answered, holding out her hand to shake.

“Eileen…” Tom repeated. “I’m Tom. Pleased to meet you, again,” he answered as he shook her hand, then held it tight for a moment before he let it go, then turned to walk again beside her.

They continued down the street toward town, now chatting, laughing. Tom was nice, easy. He smelled clean, green, clear, uncomplicated, direct, and the shock of Luke Dupre floated far from Eileen’s mind.

restrain me

I pull, in vain.

Expert knots, stopper knots, but you would let me free, I know. If I asked.

Or would you make me beg? I wish for this, for your desire to keep me here, at your disposal.

I wish for your desire itself, pure within the context of possibility.

I am here, love, open. I percolate. I wait.

Dark–no, light, still more light–in the au-delà, where you have always found me.

I wish.

I may.

I might.

resist me

Resisting you is futile.

I knew it then, that first smile, when you glanced at me across a crowded room, watched me cross my legs and watched me look down to straighten my skirt, then look up, to look at you, looking at me, you.

My words twist, convulse, as I lie back on a soft morning, my dressing slow and luxurious, as though I had nowhere in particular to go, though I am dressing to leave for the day. I have nowhere to go, I wish, but to fall back into bed, with you, your dream, you, not here, somehow here, soon here. Your voice drifts off as words turn to meaning. You know what I mean, exactly. You are here.

I wonder, at the time, daylight savings, time lost, time spent, time waiting, time I could say I devoted to you, to desire, to the mere wonder of a moment, lost, spent, awaited, devoted, desired, a moment. One more. That’s all.